[it's not the first time that they've had a conversation like this before, and he doubts it'll be the last. the idea of having to build relationships with other people isn't something he looks forward to doing though. even back at the monastery, his contact with the monks had been minimal at best. unless they needed something from him, or he had some sort of chore that took him in to their vicinity, he hadn't really sought any of them out for company.
it was only ever diarmuid's persistence that had forced him out of that habit years ago, and left him grateful for those moments that the two of them were able to spend together. the friendship that they built, however undeserving of it he is, had quickly become the one bright point in his life. and now, stuck in this town, it's even more true than ever. he doesn't need anybody else to care about.
so of course, the idea of having to spend time with diarmuid's friends is still met with resistance. other than the few moments he's spent making sure that they aren't a danger to the boy, he hasn't seen any reason to seek them out again. why would he? he wasn't brought back for his own benefit. he didn't earn this third chance.
he glances, all too briefly, back at diarmuid. only barely able to make eye contact before he's looking away again. he doesn't like letting the boy down like this. but neither is he ready to start seeking company from others. not when he knows they won't be anywhere near as accepting of his silence as the monks were]
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it was only ever diarmuid's persistence that had forced him out of that habit years ago, and left him grateful for those moments that the two of them were able to spend together. the friendship that they built, however undeserving of it he is, had quickly become the one bright point in his life. and now, stuck in this town, it's even more true than ever. he doesn't need anybody else to care about.
so of course, the idea of having to spend time with diarmuid's friends is still met with resistance. other than the few moments he's spent making sure that they aren't a danger to the boy, he hasn't seen any reason to seek them out again. why would he? he wasn't brought back for his own benefit. he didn't earn this third chance.
he glances, all too briefly, back at diarmuid. only barely able to make eye contact before he's looking away again. he doesn't like letting the boy down like this. but neither is he ready to start seeking company from others. not when he knows they won't be anywhere near as accepting of his silence as the monks were]